Time for Change

There comes a time when life has to return to some kind of normality or you are just going to go out of your mind and Lenny Lymphoma will drive you insane - and for me that transition to normality feels like it maybe starting.

This week feels like a turning point. I feel more positive and can see beyond next week. The good days are outweighing the bad.

Registering to participate in Cancer Research UK's Race for Life in June 2010 was the first stepping stone; to give some good back to those vital Organisations who have been helping me; but it was also a diversion, a “feel good” factor.

Counselling from the lovely Ros is starting to help me to understand, to rationalise and to accept the feelings I have.

Continuing to review and absorb information is a powerful tool. If you can understand your condition you find more strength to fight. Knowledge really is power. Some find my constant review of the Web unsettling, but I only take note of information from reputable Organisations; I really do not need horror stories or glimmers of false hope.

I am about to register for a Reiki Healing Course; not only to learn a new skill, but a great opportunity to seek self-relaxation and help those around me; heal the healer as they say.

This evening I have some pampering of my own, with an appointment at my favourite salon for a new hairstyle and colour ready for Spring – thank you R & C; it's a lovely Mothers Day present. As I walked my dogs this lunchtime I also saw the first Daffodils emerging, so Spring really is in the h..air!

I have also become a MacMillan Cancer Voice, using my experience of Cancer to date along with many others to help shape the future of Cancer care and to assist in making life better for everyone affected by Cancer.


I do believe I have started the next stage of my journey; taking back control of this situation.